Half Year Bliss

Dear Juancho,

When I knew I was having you, I was scared out of my wits. I did not know how to provide for another child. But now, I understand why God gave me you.

You came at the point in my life when everything was dull and gray, full of tears and pain, when everything was heavy and dark and hopeless.

I never expected that you would bring me so much joy.

Six months and you’ve brought in sunshine and color and laughter and hope back into my life. When I am around you, all my sorrow fades away.

The way you touch my face and look up into my eyes; the way you smile when you see me come home from work; the way you laugh when i make all sorts of ridiculous faces; the way you roll over and try so hard to sit straight; the way you coo when you wake up in the morning; the way you form bubbles with your mouth; the way you hug me back when I carry you; your steady breathing when you finally sleep, I could just go on — these make up the moments of my life now.

Thank you so much Juancho for saving me. And I will continue to live everyday for you. I love you langga. Happy half year to you. 😘😊😍

Love,

Mama

20140505-202928.jpg

xx

DMV

What is Love?

What-is-love

Love is …

♥  a single white rose on a rainy day
♥  a movie with Tater’s major barbecue fries
♥  a box of Reese’s
♥  a book collection
♥  a peck on the cheek
♥  a hug from the back
♥  a foot massage
♥  a bowl of cerelac
♥  a slow dance
♥  a lunch date with your sister
♥  a music soundtrack
♥  a rock concert with your bestfriend

IMG_7156

Love is …

♥  the racing heart and the sweat that breaks from a proposing man
♥  the tears that fall from the groom’s eyes when his bride enters the room
♥  the look of awe on a bride’s face when saying her vows
♥  the house they build and make into a home
♥  the waking hour, the afternoon sighs and the last goodnight
♥  the rise and fall of his every breath while watching him sleep
♥  the 9 months a mother carries her son in her womb
♥  the endurance of a torturous 36 hour labor
♥  the patience in looking after a baby who just recently had his shots
♥  the constant cooing of a 3 month old angel
♥  the ridiculous face a brother makes for a smile from the little one
♥  the proud look of a grandfather seeing his grandson score a goal

IMG_8077

Love is…

♥  the bags under a mother’s eyes for staying up late to feed the baby
♥  the scar on her belly to bring out the life from within
♥  the pain a father feels from not seeing his newborn son
♥  the broken heart of a single mother
♥  the dreams she keeps pursuing in hopeless situations
♥  the faith she puts on an unseen God
♥  the silent prayers for a shattered soul
♥  the forgiveness for the hurt, selfishness, lies and betrayal
♥  the appreciation of the little things that matter
♥  the acceptance of a person despite the differences
♥  the sincere thank you during helpless moments
♥  the fingers locked and intertwined, not wanting to let go

20140209-090205.jpg

Love is undefined, indescribable, immeasurable…

LOVE are these moments.

what-is-love

xx

DMV

…but the greatest of these is Love. – 1 Corinthians 13:13

Photo courtesy: Google images

Forgive.

Forgive. Forgiveness. To forgive.

Such a strong word. Such a big decision to make. Such a brave choice.

Especially when what was done to you was unfathomable. Something that until now you still try to understand. Incomprehensible. Uncalled for. Too much.

Especially when the one who hurt you was someone you love. Someone who fills the space of your heart. Someone your world revolved around. Someone you look up to. Someone you least expected.

Especially when the trust is tainted and respect is lost and you harbor thoughts of revenge and your heart continues to race, fueled by hate and anger.

Especially when it’s so hard to forget, the memories destroy you, the tears unconsciously fall and you are left unanswered to endless whys.

To forgive. Why forgive when sometimes you just can’t, when it is so hard to do.

Because only in forgiveness do we find peace. It is the most rewarding thing that we can give ourselves, the gift of peace. And in peace we find the strength to move on, to go forward. We free ourselves from our own prison, our prison being the grudges and bitterness we hold. In forgiving, we release ourselves from the pain. We eventually learn to appreciate what we call life and start living it fully.

Forgiving takes time and it is never easy. It is an act of full determination that has to come from you. You have to want to forgive. You have to decide to forgive. You have to choose to forgive. But if possible, forgive quickly. Take focus on what the wrong has opened your eyes to and pave the way to your healing. Remember we are not promised tomorrow.

forgiveness-bible-verses-540x337

xx

DMV

Photo: Google images