Posts Tagged ‘selfish’

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Thank you for Sunday.

June 24, 2015

I wanted to write about you. About how I’m starting to resent you. About how I feel like you aren’t true to your word. About how I’ve been asking because you said to ask and I’ll be getting what I’ve asked for, but I haven’t. About how I’ve been searching what you said will be found, but I stare in blank spaces instead. About how I’ve been knocking because you said you open doors, but even the windows are shut. I keep asking myself why you let these things happen; why you are silent, unanswering, unavailable. I feel unheard, abandoned. I feel like you are not on my side. It seems like you have a sick sense of humor and the joke’s on me. You’ve left me anxious and frustrated and bitter. I believed, I believe, I keep on believing, I even keep on assuring myself that I believe and that there is a reason behind all these, that there is a purpose these has to happen.

After more than a month of ignoring you, I finally went to see you last Sunday. You welcomed me despite that. You had me sit and offered me really good coffee. You smiled upon me last Sunday and we talked. You asked how I was and you even sang to me. You then asked me if I’ve set goals for my life. I told you about mine, the goals I’ve been setting for so long, the goals I’ve been immensely praying you help me with. You asked me if these goals are anchored on love. By love you mean by sharing to others, goals with selfless acts, goals that honor and respect. You then started talking about faith and encouragement and character. I was holding back tears as I listened and stared at you. My goals were anchored on myself and I felt so ashamed.

I’m sorry for being impatient and for being easily swayed away from what you’ve taught me to do. I’m sorry for being selfish and self-centered. I realized that when I try to justify myself, the end result still points back to me. I know you have a better plan than the one I have in mind, you always do. So I will wait. I will wait for whatever it is that you will give me, whatever it is that you want to happen. I will wait. I will extend my patience and wait because I believe it will be better. If tomorrow doesn’t go as I planned, then so be it. I will trust you on this one.

xx

DMV

Let love be your highest goal. – 1 Corinthians 14:1

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Tick tock

June 18, 2015

In a grim and unjust world, you get more chances of fainting than there is to breathe. Each corner is suffocating, each turn a backward pull. And you will wonder, how’d you get to be so unfortunate? How’d this world get to be so cruel? How’d the people get to be so selfish and inconsiderate?

Each day is waking to a storm of worries. Though they say it will be okay, that remains to be seen. For the meantime you feed on frustration and acid churns your stomach, disintegrating your spirit, sucking dry whatever enthusiasm is left of your dull, unglamorous life. Anxiety gets the best of you.

Vengeance is enticing, oh how delicious it is to see them squirm and worry out of their wits. And they beg. They will beg. They will beg you to listen, to consider, to make amends, to compromise and they will find out that have they heeded to your plea, it wouldn’t have come to this.

We sit and watch.

xx

DMV

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Worry Is Selfishness in Disguise

September 11, 2014

Sharing Day 104 of the reading plan I am currently on from http://www.joycemeyer.org/ Joyce Meyer: Promises for Your Everyday Life – a Daily Devotional

Worry Is Selfishness in Disguise

Too often, people give in to worry without realizing how deadly it is. When you get to the root of it, worry is a sin. Worry certainly doesn’t come out of faith, and Romans 14:23 (AMP) states that “whatever does not originate and proceed from faith is sin.”

Most of the time, worry is based on one sin in particular: selfishness. Usually when we worry, we’re concerned about how our selfish desires are not being fulfilled. The more selfish desires you have, the more you have to worry about, and the more complicated your life becomes.

God wants us to simply focus on serving Him.

It is God’s will that we live our lives free from all anxiety and distressing care. He wants us to be free to serve Him without being ‘drawn in diverging directions’ (1 Corinthians 7:34 AMP). We must not allow the worries of this world to divert us from His purpose for our lives.

Seek to rid yourself of selfish desires. This will keep your life simple and give you less to worry about. Then you can wholeheartedly pursue God’s great plan for your life.

Prayer Starter: Father God, thank You for showing me that worry is a sin. Help me to get rid of my selfish, ungodly desires so that I can simply pursue Your destiny for me.

And he that doubteth is damned if he eat, because he eateth not of faith: for whatsoever is not of faith is sin. (‭Romans‬ ‭14‬:‭23‬ KJV)

(c) DAVJ

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