Thank you for Sunday.

I wanted to write about you. About how I’m starting to resent you. About how I feel like you aren’t true to your word. About how I’ve been asking because you said to ask and I’ll be getting what I’ve asked for, but I haven’t. About how I’ve been searching what you said will be found, but I stare in blank spaces instead. About how I’ve been knocking because you said you open doors, but even the windows are shut. I keep asking myself why you let these things happen; why you are silent, unanswering, unavailable. I feel unheard, abandoned. I feel like you are not on my side. It seems like you have a sick sense of humor and the joke’s on me. You’ve left me anxious and frustrated and bitter. I believed, I believe, I keep on believing, I even keep on assuring myself that I believe and that there is a reason behind all these, that there is a purpose these has to happen.

After more than a month of ignoring you, I finally went to see you last Sunday. You welcomed me despite that. You had me sit and offered me really good coffee. You smiled upon me last Sunday and we talked. You asked how I was and you even sang to me. You then asked me if I’ve set goals for my life. I told you about mine, the goals I’ve been setting for so long, the goals I’ve been immensely praying you help me with. You asked me if these goals are anchored on love. By love you mean by sharing to others, goals with selfless acts, goals that honor and respect. You then started talking about faith and encouragement and character. I was holding back tears as I listened and stared at you. My goals were anchored on myself and I felt so ashamed.

I’m sorry for being impatient and for being easily swayed away from what you’ve taught me to do. I’m sorry for being selfish and self-centered. I realized that when I try to justify myself, the end result still points back to me. I know you have a better plan than the one I have in mind, you always do. So I will wait. I will wait for whatever it is that you will give me, whatever it is that you want to happen. I will wait. I will extend my patience and wait because I believe it will be better. If tomorrow doesn’t go as I planned, then so be it. I will trust you on this one.

xx

DMV

Let love be your highest goal. – 1 Corinthians 14:1

Why speak the Truth

People nowadays don’t even bother to rationalize what they truly believe in or even try to perceive what is real and they end up building their entire lives on beliefs that are simply not true. Whatever is conventionalized or trending or desirable suddenly becomes truth to them.

So often times they live a misled life, they cater to ludicrous principles, they make do with what they are at present, the present being them chasing what is far beyond their reach, neglecting to see facts that are constantly lobbed at them and decide to act on ridiculous choices that will eventually destroy them. Unconsciously they are aware but in constant denial of their having too much incredible ambitions.

These people then start to lie. They begin to keep secrets. They morph into totally different characters. Because they are trying to keep up with the demands of the world they’ve speciously created to feed their own desires and expectations. They become selfish and self-absorbed and hurtful and deceitful and pathetic.

For the reason that they refuse to see and accept the truth. Truth in what they do, what they speak of, what they believe in, what they try to live on. And in due time, they are found out.

These people fail to see that in truth, cliche as it is, they are set free.

For in truth, they are able to trust and be trusted. In order to be successful in anything, a person must have a reputation of honesty. And in living a life of integrity you build on good relationships. Respect is gained.

Almost daily, one of our greatest stressors is the degree to which we should be honest. In truth, there is peace.

Believing what others say rather than exploring the truth for yourself will actually limit you and even keep you from doing what it is you are supposed to do. But if you contend for the truth, embrace it and build your life upon it, you will succeed in every endeavor.

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xx

DMV

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