Posts Tagged ‘moving on’

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Forgive.

February 3, 2014

Forgive. Forgiveness. To forgive.

Such a strong word. Such a big decision to make. Such a brave choice.

Especially when what was done to you was unfathomable. Something that until now you still try to understand. Incomprehensible. Uncalled for. Too much.

Especially when the one who hurt you was someone you love. Someone who fills the space of your heart. Someone your world revolved around. Someone you look up to. Someone you least expected.

Especially when the trust is tainted and respect is lost and you harbor thoughts of revenge and your heart continues to race, fueled by hate and anger.

Especially when it’s so hard to forget, the memories destroy you, the tears unconsciously fall and you are left unanswered to endless whys.

To forgive. Why forgive when sometimes you just can’t, when it is so hard to do.

Because only in forgiveness do we find peace. It is the most rewarding thing that we can give ourselves, the gift of peace. And in peace we find the strength to move on, to go forward. We free ourselves from our own prison, our prison being the grudges and bitterness we hold. In forgiving, we release ourselves from the pain. We eventually learn to appreciate what we call life and start living it fully.

Forgiving takes time and it is never easy. It is an act of full determination that has to come from you. You have to want to forgive. You have to decide to forgive. You have to choose to forgive. But if possible, forgive quickly. Take focus on what the wrong has opened your eyes to and pave the way to your healing. Remember we are not promised tomorrow.

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Doors.

January 14, 2014

Life is full of doors wherein we get to choose which ones to go through. What is behind each door? One does not know unless one opens and sees for himself. Each door leads to different events that compose our lives. It solely depends on us which doors to open and enter and which doors to close and lock.

Some thoughts about doors by Paulo Coelho (one of my favorite authors).

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God gave us the ultimate power: to choose the life we live. We make our choices and our choices make our life. Whatever the outcome, no one is accountable but us. So choose wisely.

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Choose to be happy.

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End of the rainbow.

November 25, 2013

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I didn’t find gold at the end of the rainbow. Instead I found a black empty pot.

Ten years and I think our journey ends.

We took a chance, I took a chance because I believe that Family is everything. God knows how hard I’ve tried and fought to save mine. I had hope. I didn’t stop believing that it will get better despite the circumstances. But everyone has a breaking point. I’ve reached mine and my heart’s shut off, battered, beaten, broken; exhausted of being hurt and being lied to over and over again.

I’ve no regrets though, I took the dive because I chose to. Unfortunately we surfaced to two separate boats.

But I am thankful.

I am thankful to have spent ten years with someone who’s taught me the value of patience and perseverance; to have spent ten years with someone I truly love. I am thankful for all the happy moments we’ve shared, moments I anchored onto when I was about to give up. I am thankful for the blessing of three beautiful angels who has taught me to love unconditionally.

I am thankful for the experience in which I learned to value myself. I learned to love myself, to know my worth, to know what I deserve. I learned to be unselfish when it comes to things that are important. I learned the significance of life and family.

Sometimes, no matter how hard we try, some things are just not meant to be. You may be in love with each other yet you just can’t live together. And no matter how hard you try to keep the relationship from failing, if you’re working at it alone, it will all just fall apart.

I’m sorry for not being perfect. I know I’m not the ideal wife. I’m sorry for being angry, I was just trying to look out for you and it gets frustrating when you don’t listen. I’m sorry for being emotional, it just makes me sad that you don’t notice me. I’m sorry for being jealous, I just wanted you to be mine as I was yours.

As we go our separate ways and live our separate lives, my only wish is that you find whatever it is that you are looking for.

The life we live are brought about by the choices we make. Let us move on and choose to be happy.

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Ideal vs. Real

July 1, 2013

Those mental images, concepts, ideas of perfect…

When we were young, we believed we had it all figured out. The ideal life, the ideal job, the ideal boyfriend, the ideal husband, the ideal house, the ideal car, the ideal family…

You work at it, then life begins and you suddenly realize you got it all wrong. You try and try to reach that ideal but then reality strikes and you find out you just can’t win. So you build up this fantasy world to shield yourself from the pain, to guard against a mind about to collapse, a heart ready to explode.

Some shy away from everything they know, trying to avoid keeping up a brave face because truth is, everything is just broken.

Some stand at the edge of the rail, looking back and contemplating to jump.

Others put a bullet through their head.

Sometimes you have this fluttering feeling, a kick that says someone’s life depends on you and all you are left to do is lock yourself in some secluded place and start to cry.

We then start to ask, how did we end up here? Would we rather live a boring but normal life or a colorful but complicated life?

Where we end up are the results of the choices we’ve made while we journey on. We need to recognize the difference between what is ideal and what is real. We are the authors of our own books, we write our pages. If your ideals fail you, refocus. See reality, make do of what is in front of you, focus on things that matter most. Block away the trauma and move on. Easier said than done but realize it’s just tears and rain in a day of your life. There is still a great chance tomorrow might be sunny.

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