Writing this in the rainy season to maybe remind me, us, some remnants of summer.
First proper vacay out of town for the kids, finally out after 2 years!
Now off to Boracay Island!
Road trip took maybe 4 hours if we haven’t stopped by some Mcdonald’s and Jollibee to eat. Aftermath of the typhoon was still very visible, the roads we passed by were either collapsed or flooded. Arrived to a very chaotic Caticlan port around past lunch time, took us maybe more than an hour to finally board and transfer to the island.
And just in time for sunset.
Stayed on the island for a good 4 days, from Holy Thursday to Easter Sunday, and boy, did the kids have a lot of fun!
First night, finally caught up with half of my forever dates!
Random beach day views
and random skies.
And as everything else, all things come to an end.
Not sure why I can’t really get around to writing anything on here these days. Not considering I have been veeeeeerrrrrryyyyy busy with work, nevertheless I do get off days too. And I mostly spend it just lying in bed and sleeping or scrolling thru my Instagram feed, playing mobile games, watching Netflix and a little bit (maybe not) of online shopping.
I can’t really say that I’m unproductive because believe me, I do get a lot of important things done despite the procrastination but I really feel so out of touch, so uninspired, and so lazy.
So here I am posting about my 37th birthday (which was August LAST YEAR by the way), in May of 2022, maybe because I just want to document things and have something to look back at.
Started the week off with my friends up the mountains.
Grateful to have spent this day with this bunch even during this time of quarantine nonsense and pandemic shenanigans.
Got my second dose COVID-19 vaccine on my birthday. Best gift I gave myself.
And came home to this surprise!
Thank you fam! My purple heart is so full!
And capped off the week with some cake and coffee with Benjie and Tricia.
Such a wholesome birthday week celebration. My Leo season. Thank you universe!
I never imagined getting affected by the flimsiest of things but here I am, a chaotic mess of sad, angry and feeling bad. Yes, I felt bad.
It never crossed my mind that I would develop anxiety but the past 10 months of uncontrollable uncertainty has turned me into a silent wreck.
Isolation and confinement has pushed me to reach out to people, recklessly exposing myself to be emotionally vulnerable and I’ve been led on and left out.
I’ve never done any of these things before and it’s overwhelmingly new and suffocating. And as soon as someone paid attention, I easily forget that expectation is paired with disappointment.
I used to be so good at refocusing my thoughts, blocking out bad memories, or just not giving a care but somehow, it’s been getting really hard to hold it all together and not being able to control what runs through my head is taking its toll on me.