Posts Tagged ‘choice’

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Bewitched by Children’s Laughter

February 6, 2019

I did not dream of having kids. It was never part of the plan.

I wanted to write and live in different places, experience this diverse, expansive earth everyone keeps talking about.

At some point, I even wanted to go to outer space, discover aliens, leave footprints on the moon, trek Mars, name stars.

But you see, life has a sick sense of humor and who would have imagined I’d end up birthing 3 boys instead.

The irony.

I wasn’t ready.

Stuck in the mundane.

I think I’ll never be ready.

Fine, joke’s on me.

But I kept on, even when my mind was in total chaos. I still keep on.

I had the choice to get away, to run away as I always do, but I stayed.

And trying to be a mother, keeping up a facade of this supposedly strong person and parenting alone while my heart shattered into infinite pieces, was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to endure.

But oh, the laughter of children, the sweetest songs, such beautiful music to my ears, I could listen to for a lifetime.

The course of our lives sometimes do not play out like how we pictured it in our heads but somehow, we always end up where we should be.

And most times, much happier.

 

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Random thoughts on this last Friday of August

August 28, 2015

Sometimes you just jump, like off a cliff or a really tall building.

Drastically you just do, even if heavy fog blinds you and the only way is down and there is no way of finding out what lies beneath when you hit bottom, be it rocks or stone pavements or grass or sea.

Because for a split, staggering, unnerving moment…you fly.

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Yeah I’m off work in two hours, yay for the long weekend!

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Face the Truth About Yourself

October 15, 2014

In attaining peace, the first step is acceptance. Human as we are, we find fault in other people, things or situations when something goes wrong. What we fail to see is that we are given the choice to make happen what we want to happen; our misery and our joy depends on the decisions we make. Our tainted past or blurry present all have an impact on how we choose to live out the rest of our lives but it doesn’t define us, it is not reason to stop pursuing dreams or do good, it is not a hindrance but instead an opportunity to discover ourselves, our weaknesses and capabilities and what we can do about it. We have to accept that we are not perfect, the world is not perfect, but there is hope for all of us if we learn, let go and move forward. Things always happen for a reason and if it doesn’t work out like we expected it should, believe that you are called to a better purpose. Choose to accept these obstacles, these challenges, and peace will be in your heart.

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Sharing Day 137 of the reading plan I am currently on from http://www.joycemeyer.org/ Joyce Meyer: Promises for Your Everyday Life – a Daily Devotional

Face the Truth About Yourself

Someone once asked how I live free from my oppressive past. My answer is very simple: God has given me the grace and the willingness to face the truth about myself.

I grew up in a war zone. Because of my quick temper, I was upset most of the time. Because of being upset, I grew up depressed, disappointed and discouraged. I wished I could have a better life, but my wishing didn’t solve anything. It wasted my time as I kept blaming my problems on my bad family background.

Finally, God helped me realize that I had to stop wishing and start taking responsibility, to quit blaming other people and my circumstances, and quit making excuses for myself.

You might be in a similar situation. Facing the truth about yourself is scary, but you don’t have to do it alone. All your flaws are exposed to God, and if you ask Him for His perspective, He will help you pick yourself up, take responsibility, and live a peaceful life. Today, don’t be scared to face the truth about yourself, but let God guide you into a new tomorrow.

Prayer Starter: Holy Spirit, I need Your help to face the truth about myself. It’s time to stop blaming my problems on my past and on other people, and to meet them head-on with the power of Your Word. Empower me to take responsibility and to change for the better.

Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable. (‭Hebrews‬ ‭4‬:‭13‬ NLT)

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Doors.

January 14, 2014

Life is full of doors wherein we get to choose which ones to go through. What is behind each door? One does not know unless one opens and sees for himself. Each door leads to different events that compose our lives. It solely depends on us which doors to open and enter and which doors to close and lock.

Some thoughts about doors by Paulo Coelho (one of my favorite authors).

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God gave us the ultimate power: to choose the life we live. We make our choices and our choices make our life. Whatever the outcome, no one is accountable but us. So choose wisely.

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Choose to be happy.

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2014: New Year, New Life

December 31, 2013

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2013 was not the best year for me. It was full of stress, tears, betrayal and heartache. It was an overwhelming year, I could actually describe it as the “highlight” of my life. But if we dwell and count all the wrong that has happened to us, we would find a bad year after year, after year. So instead let us be thankful for the year that was; the blessings that God has continued to shower upon us.

What am I thankful for?

I am thankful for the wonderful blessing of family. Through my ups and downs, success and failures, through whatever, they have never left my side. With them, I know where to run in times of trouble, I know where I stand, I know I am priority. We may not always agree on things but i know that their intentions are for the best.

I am thankful for amazing friends who has continued to look out for me, journey with me and support me on whatever I decide to do and respect the choices that I make.

I am thankful for the beautiful gift called life. My children has been my inspiration to move on and move forward. They have given me my life’s direction and they are what I continue to live for.

As we close another chapter of our lives and open a fresh and new one, know that it is inevitable that we face challenges as we go along. But believe that it will be okay. Remind yourself that it will all be okay, say it enough, say it so often that one day you’ll actually believe it.

Everything that we want to happen in our lives solely depends upon us. All things happen for a reason so hold on, have faith and never give up cause who’s to say that tomorrow won’t be the best day of your life?

From me to you, a blessed 2014. A new year, a new life, another chance to get it right! Let’s all embark on new adventures! Cheers!

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End Results.

August 7, 2013

Our mind is a treacherous place. Trust is a fantasy. Monsters we have returned to. Malevolent we have become. We speak without knowing. We act without caution. We are selfish. A dark lore looms just above sanity; a sudden push might cease us to exist. Our epiphanies come to be catatonic. Everyday a catastrophic calamity of thoughts. We are broken pieces of glass. A bleeding inevitability of being incomplete. The predicament of wanting to be at all places at once. The dilemma of being stuck in between, having to choose between what is right and what is good. A far reach to sanctuary, a silent cry for comfort, a hopeful breath for relief.

Persevering patience for an ideal. A longing for normalcy.

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Start.

January 30, 2013

Starting out fresh.

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She’s isolated herself enough. Three weeks of no calls, texts or social media. Three weeks of drowning in books about serial killers and gore. Three weeks of listening to endless despairing songs on YouTube.

I guess she was just trying to cope up with something the best way she knew how.

She’s sitting on her desk, finishing up some presentation for her Masters class on Saturday. She zones out, again. Her colleagues says something to her but she doesn’t hear them. She stares back at them, smiles and nods, not having an inkling on what they were talking about. She wants to get away, she NEEDS to get away, but she doesn’t know how.

Needs a distraction. She’s so used to running but she can’t always run.

What she needed was someone to talk to, someone that just listened and absorbed everything (like a sponge maybe). Someone (or something) that gave comfortable silence. Not that she doesn’t have any friends, she actually has a large network. She writes sometimes, seeing it as an alternative realm to express herself freely, unashamed, naked and stripped to the core of her being with no fear of being condemned because of her pretensions. Her life is a sham.

Meet her here.

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