Forgive. Forgiveness. To forgive.
Such a strong word. Such a big decision to make. Such a brave choice.
Especially when what was done to you was unfathomable. Something that until now you still try to understand. Incomprehensible. Uncalled for. Too much.
Especially when the one who hurt you was someone you love. Someone who fills the space of your heart. Someone your world revolved around. Someone you look up to. Someone you least expected.
Especially when the trust is tainted and respect is lost and you harbor thoughts of revenge and your heart continues to race, fueled by hate and anger.
Especially when it’s so hard to forget, the memories destroy you, the tears unconsciously fall and you are left unanswered to endless whys.
To forgive. Why forgive when sometimes you just can’t, when it is so hard to do.
Because only in forgiveness do we find peace. It is the most rewarding thing that we can give ourselves, the gift of peace. And in peace we find the strength to move on, to go forward. We free ourselves from our own prison, our prison being the grudges and bitterness we hold. In forgiving, we release ourselves from the pain. We eventually learn to appreciate what we call life and start living it fully.
Forgiving takes time and it is never easy. It is an act of full determination that has to come from you. You have to want to forgive. You have to decide to forgive. You have to choose to forgive. But if possible, forgive quickly. Take focus on what the wrong has opened your eyes to and pave the way to your healing. Remember we are not promised tomorrow.
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